Newborn Days

In the midst of these sleepless newborn days and nights, it seems that I will never get a normal night's sleep again...however, this being the third time around, I know that it actually will pass all too quickly and I will miss a tiny little newborn snuggled up against me so still because they just want to be held.  So tiny that I can remember that's exactly how they felt inside me (except upside down!) and almost still feel those kicks and shoves.  The way they hold out their arms up in front of them at the smallest of sounds as if they're saying, "Hallelujah!"

There are those little things about a newborn that I remember in every one of my children--the way they try to hold up their head, but it just shakes around and they look like a little turtle trying to look around at their surroundings.  Or the way they just squeak and make little grunts the very first few days of life (usually they begin wailing about the time you get home from the hospital)!  One of my favorites--how they lift up their eyebrows really high even though their eyes are still closed.  And one that's a mystery--what in the world they are dreaming about all day and night when you see a little tiny smile creep across their little faces.

I try to remember Sean when he was Brilee's age, and I see little glimpses of him (and Lilly) in her--but sometimes I'm sad that all I have are those memories (and pictures!).  He is growing into such a big boy, that it's hard to believe it was just 3 1/2 years ago that he was born...and only 19 1/2 months ago since Lilly was this tiny!  I want to remember all these little things about all three of them, so I have decided I want to begin journaling these memories before I forget them...I tried to start a journal several times over the past 3 years, but it always gets put down and forgotten under a pile of papers.  So, this time I'm typing everything down here in this blog.  Mainly because it's easier for me to sit down and type than it is to write the old-fashioned way, but also because it will be less likely to be forgotten and put to the side and i won't have to start every entry with the word, "It's been WAY too long since I've written anything..." 

I love being a mommy, and I never want to forget all the little things along the way.  So, I hope I actually do a good job chronicalling my kiddos current happeninging and remembering/recording old ones along the way.  They are too precious to slip away from me.